have you ever...............?

have you ever...............?

have you ever been in love?
have you ever been loved?
have you ever betrayed by a friend?
have you ever found a friend that more likely to be your twins?
have you ever had a friend who's nothing but full of bullshit?
have you ever taken for granted by someone you thought innocent, but not so innocent afterall?
have you ever meet a beast?
have you ever known 13 angels?
have you ever meet 9 of them?

well, I HAVE....

I dunno what my life has become

Literally,,
I feel LONELY now..

my friends are getting further away,,
I'm practically pulling myself away from my family due to my cancelled graduation,,
the only place where I can feel comfort to tell everything, twitter, is no longer 'safe'...

I know that my life sounds so pathetic,, I dun even know why...

splitting mind

as long as a human lives, there's always problem to face.

And me,, ooh yeah, i'm still human and still ALIVE (Alhamdulillah..). So, here I am, facing tons of problems in my front yard. I know by saying this, I'm gonna looked like a little girl complaining about how life goes unfair for her ad people start to ignore her too. (I am) But NO,,, what I'm trying to explain is that this is my life, my problems, perhaps the same with what you are facing right now, so if we found the same thing, why not sharing??

Right now, I'm probably at the weakest stage of my life so far. I dunno where to put all my mixed feelings, so here I am again. Well, i know I am now a good writer, but people, I am trying to relieve my feelings here, so please be nice on me... *puppy eyes *_*

Okay it's all started about one and a half months ago. My KKN time,,, dunno about it?? read here i met 11 new people,, most of them are so nice, n i luv having them as my friends. From the start, there were no many problems we face, just,,,, as we heading to the end of our activity, some problems started to arise. it's this boy, let's call him "guma" (don't ask me why, coz i dunno. He,,, i dunno how to start. do you know that kinda boy who take a girl for granted?? well,, i think he's that kinda boy. Sadly, I'm kinda falling for him.. TT__TT stupid me . And now, what i've been afraid of is happening, he took me for granted... Sometimes i just hope i was born as a boy Boy can always forget easily, but girls, their feeling are just too deep for a creature called boys.

Next subject,, my dear forgotten thesis..... *sigh*
I've got some potential titles, but my campus has decided to be more strict to thesis writing just in the perfect when I'm about to write mine. Thank a lot, Sir....

Okay, according to DR. dee,,, too much talking in blog might cause babbling, so think i must end it now... LOL
see ya people.. :* Lots Of Love <3

KKN,,,, whuuuut???

okay,,,, been a long time since i wrote my entry..... i know,,
but since no one read my blog til now, so, it's okay.. ^^

it's the first entry since i moved to a new place, Sokong, Tanjung, KLU....
Yeppp,,, this where i am now,,, meeting some new friends i never knew before, but luckily we can get along pretty well....

we are a 11 member group..
6 boys and 5 girls,,, but apparently there are only two girls left in the "posko"
all of them are sick,, poor them,, hope they get well soon, coz i ain't gonna serve this bloody boys like i'm their servant....

My,,,,,,, i miss hyuk~~~~ T___T

not much time for me to fangirl him,,,
i really miss my fangirling time,,
sitting in front of my laptop, downloading stuff about him, staying up all night to stream the concert,,,,
wish i can do it again after i finish this KKN,,, 37 days to go....

oops,, think i gotta go again now,,,
enough for tday,
hope i can have another time and words to write another "gaje" entry... ^^
Lots Of Love~~~~~~
dee

daydreaming

Sat, 20th Nov 2010

I wrote this when my friend was teaching in front of the class. Yeah,, I know, I should've pay attention to the way he teaches, but I couldn't help myself not to feel bored in this class.

At times like this, I probably wondering around about something that's totally unimportant, which is what I'm doing now, instead of thinking about something serious. Like what? Take my thesis as an example. Oh God,,,, I'm such a loser. What am I supposed to do to make my self realize that this is way more beyond IMPORTANT!! Slap me in the face, maybe? Naah, it's not gonna work. Belive me. It needs something bigger to wake me up from this daydreaming.

Gaaaaaaah,,, I need someone!! Someone to tell me, " Hey dee,, you've been going through the wrong way all this time. Snap out of it!" If oly I could turn around and see what I've been doing all this time in my whole life, it would be a mess. Something that cannot possibly be repaired. And it really can't.

For just one time in my whole life, I wanna do something right. Something that can make people say, " hey dee, you're awesome, you did a good job." But no, I haven't done enough good deeds to hear that phrase.

OMG,, I've been wondering too much. My friend was still busy taking care of some 'difficult' students. Sorry for not helping out, pals. I still have one more class after this, and i'm pretty sure that you're not gonna helping me much either. After all this stuffs i wrote, damn I still feel sleepy. No wonder, I slept at 4 am last night, or,,, morning. Why? I don't even know. I was just not willing to sleep. Blame LEE HYUK JAE!!

hahahaha,,,,,
Anyway, I still love you, oppa. You are TOO good to resist! ^^

Oooooh,, i feel sick. I think I'm gonna puke, Uh oh, sorry for being random again. Thank you for reaing my random talk . Lots of Luv..... <3

starter

start everything with bismillah....

well,,, nothing much to share today,, i detached school... >,<
hummmph,,, maaf ya pak,, bukannya saya gag mau dengerin kuliah bapak, tapi kuliah bapak tidak seperti yang saya harapkan ~ckckckck,, bahasa gw~. nah,, masa kuliah yang judulnya research kerjaannya malah translate satu buku. gw tau pasti ada manfaatnya translate tu buku, tapi ap gag buang2 waktu tu?? uda mau midterm aja bab 1 kagak selese2,, lah,, gimana qt bisa conduct a research pak?? udah ketinggalan banget ma kelas sebelah (ps. dosennya beda).

ngomong-ngomong soal kelas sebelah,,, gw kesel banget ma orang2nya. banyak banget orang nyebelin disana. gyaaaaa,,, mulai dari orang gag tau diri, ada juga orang kerjaannya ngambek mulu (please,,, just go back to kindergarten), ada yang sok taunya setengah idup. gw bersyukur sebesar-besarnya sama Allah karena gag ditempati dikelas tu.

balik ke soal kuliah, gw baru aja nyelesein tugas semantics, theories of meanings, heard 'bout that?? hah, for those who take literature n semantics subject must have heard it. i'll share about it someday.

omoooo,,,,, it's my mom's birthday tday......
bu,,, selamat ulang tahun ya,,, you're my angel, my saviour,, miss u so much....
hope to see you this ramadhan,,, stay healthy,, love you....

there,,,,,,, not eally interesting i think,,
i'll share more..... chaaa.....
annyeong....

perdana

bismillahirrohmanirrohim,,,,
akhirnya kesampean juga cita2 bikin blog... wkwkwkwk.... (^o^)

hmmmmph,,, tujuan bikin blog sebenarnya buat ceritain kehidupan gw. gw termasuk tipe orang yang susah buat ceritain masalah atau perasaan ke orang lain, even my friend. so, i hope this blog is the wayout.

sekarang gw kuliah semester 6, pengen cepet2 lulus aja.... wkwkwkwk...

cha,,, not very much to say right now...
so, prepare to enter my world....
gyahahahahaha.....

HWAITING!!!!!!